You know what is just absolutely without any doubt fantastic?
I'm happy.
WITHOUT there being any kind of routine or familiarity in my life.
The only thing that I'm certain of is when I have work and when I have school (and if I go to school is always up in the air).
It's incrediably impowering.
I'm finding that it's in me to stand on my own without the approval of other people.
The best example that I've got is the whole Walter situation. Yes, I'm quite sad that he doesn't want me back and that he's currently interested in a National Chess Champion that I'm sure is just as cute as a button.
BUT it's not a personal hurt...I'm not thinking "what's wrong with me?" It's more of a "well, that hurts, but what can you do? There's someone out there that's going to find me to be their cup of tea eventually." Nor am I even remotely jealous.
For the time being, I'm content seeing where it goes and what comes of it. He might come around :).
It's all a good time. I like having all this "me" time. I've been going to the gym on a regular basis. I go to classes, and sometimes I just run on the treadmills.
I don't have that kind of time when I'm seeing someone. It's also equally as awesome how much more time I spend with friends (Mainly just Sherry and Chris) and my Mama.
It's taken a while, but I know that I'm worth while. I know that there isn't anything "wrong" with me. I have my flaws and my problems, everyone does...but that does NOT for a second make me unlovable.
So anyway, now that I've bragged about my awesomenes (haha, I'm kidding)...I have a lot of studying to do! Two finals and revision of a 10 page paper all within the next two days!!!
THEN I'M FREE FREE FREE!
*DANCSE LIKE A MAD WOMAN*
Oh, I've also found out more about the trouble I'm in...pretty much none. :) I'll get it solved. Matthew won't be in town to show up to court, and chances of the cops coming is pretty damn slim.
In which case, no case.