I'm happy.
Completely happy.
I'm so in love, happy to be in love and thrilled to be loved.
I'm content with my relationship with Walter.
I've come to realize that no matter what happens, I will always love him and be thankful for having him in my life.
Even if I do lose him. I can imagine being angry, or regretting anything.
People always tell me the thing they regret most about highschool was dating one person.
I'm happy to say I will never be one of those people. Even things come crashing down for us, he's done so much for me. I'm a better person for having him in my life.
I hope things work out for us. I do. More than anything. And I will work to make things work.
If I make it into OU, I will go, and I will do my best to make us last. And if we don't, then that's OK.
He's worth leaving my family, he's worth giving up my comfortable lifestyle for, he's worth my giving up everything I have here.
I can't imagine ever regretting trying to be with him...no matter what the outcome.
And if I don't make it into OU...then I let him leave. And I will be happy knowing that he's doing what he really wanted to do.
I'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it
I will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it
You can speak of anger and doubts your fears and freak outs and I'll hold it
You can share your so-called shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it
(and there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
You can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I'll grant it
You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you'll have it
You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I'll support it
You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I'll understand it
(and there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
I bet you're wondering when the next payback shoe will eventually drop
I bet you're wondering when my conditional police will force you to cough up
I bet wonder how far you have now danced you way back into debt
This is the only kind of love as I understand it that there really is
You can express your deepest of truths even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it
You can fall into the abyss on your way to your bliss I'll empathize with
You can say that you have to skip town to chase your passion I'll hear it
You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it
(and there are no strings attached)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
-Alanis