Isolation

7:22 p.m. & 2005-12-09

I had to update again...

I've been awful at updating this thing. And I forget how much goes on in my life.

Walter brought to my attention that his being extremely smart makes him sad sometimes...because he feels very isolated. And that my saying dumb things (or being dumb) reminds him of that isolation.

He didn't come right out and say that. But it was kind of made clear. The unecessary sighs, rolling of his eyes, adgetated responces...I can put two and two together.

I feel bad that I do that to him. No one wants to be reminded of things that hurt.

I try so hard to make him happy, turns out that really, no matter what I do, I'm just doing make him sad, and annoyed.

It is not in me to be smarter.

I will never look at things like he does, I will never understand the depth of things as he does.

Hopefully he can be happy with dim and servile.

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I'm Jessica. I'm 18, but I feel much older. I'm a boring, boring human being. I enjoy the small things in life. Although you wouldn't always guess it. I'm trying to be happier person.

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My dogs. My family. God. Jesus. People. Books. Laughing. Sunsets with good company. Waking up to the smell of rain. Thunderstorms. Africa. My Bicycle. Shopping. Latte Mochas. Donuts. Bread. Chocolate Milk.

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I don't really hate much. Just Cheese and Walmart!

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