Today was very good.
Until I brought up a subject that I know better than to talk about.
No matter how much I want to talk about it, and hear what he has to say, he doesn't or won't talk about it.
We sometimes talk about it, but we never really talk ABOUT it. We talk about why we, excuse me, I, shouldn't worry.
And it hurts.
I've been trying to be a good girlfriend and to be a pleasent person...But it feels like it's not enough.
I'm so scared to love him as much as I do. I have everything to lose.
And he has nothing to lose...I will gladly drop everything here and move to where ever he goes.
He has so much power over me. He doesn't abuse it and it's not even his choice that he has all the power. I put myself in this position.
But it scares me to love him...I have given him everything I can. He has everything. I am his.