Prettiest girl in the world

10:11 p.m. & 2005-09-20

Beauty is in the eye of it's beholder. - Unknown(maybe it's known...?)
I'm having some series self-esteem issues at the moment.

I'm back to feeling like a fat cow, and ugly one at that...

It was also brought to my attention that I have a way of saying things that come off as rude without me really knowing it...Which is great. Let me tell ya.

Over all, it's been a good day. I'm trying to have more of those.

But I'm a girl who's never been told "You are the most beautiful thing to me" and then be looked at as though they meant it.

It won't happen. I'm guessing it would not only be a big fat lie, but hey, why bother anyway?

So fuck it. I'm an ugly cow. I will never be the most beautiful girl in the world.

It's just difficult to be ok with yourself when you can't get your boyfriend to look at you the way he looks at the beautiful woman on tv...

Knowing that no matter what, he will always think there's someone prettier.

And I know he loves me and that I'm all he wants...but why can't I be the prettiest thing to him?

It's ok though.

I'm loved.

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about me
I'm Jessica. I'm 18, but I feel much older. I'm a boring, boring human being. I enjoy the small things in life. Although you wouldn't always guess it. I'm trying to be happier person.

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My dogs. My family. God. Jesus. People. Books. Laughing. Sunsets with good company. Waking up to the smell of rain. Thunderstorms. Africa. My Bicycle. Shopping. Latte Mochas. Donuts. Bread. Chocolate Milk.

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I don't really hate much. Just Cheese and Walmart!

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Moby
Alanis Morissette
Three Dog Night
Britney Spears
Beck
Jack Johnson
Blue October
Alana Davis
Titanic Sountrack